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Daily Prompts: Heart to heart with my mother

15 Dec

Write a letter to your mom. Tell her something you’ve always wanted to say, but haven’t been able to.

I don't own the image. It's from Google Images

I don’t own the image. It’s from Google Images

Dear Maa,
As we’re quite close, writing to you was never craved for. I don’t think I was ever inadequate in telling you how much you mean to me, and nor do I think I ever told you enough. Once again, you mean the world to me mumma.

If I had to tell you one thing, I always wanted to but never could then that would be about me. About my personality, About the way I have transformed from my experiences and about the way I’ve become the the kind of girl you never planned on raising. No, I don’t do drugs or drink or smoke or slut around. I am not anorexic or bulimic and I’m not in any kind of trouble. I’m just a normal girl who is a loved daughter, sister and friend. It’s just that I’m not developing my personality as per the norms you had set for me. For example, I’m not as religious as you’re ’cause I believe in trying to be a good person more than trying to pray more. That doesn’t mean I don’t believe in God. I thank him everyday (afterall he gave me my mother 😉 ). But maa,  I can’t be as religious as you. Sorry to disappoint you!

Another likely example is the way I look at life. I have seen the way you’ve lived and I don’t want to have the same regrets as you (I want to make my own mistakes 😉 ). So, I want to travel a lot, read and do all I love even if that means having some bad experiences on the way. I can’t live as per the rules of society, I want to make my own! Yes, I know it sounds rebellious. But whatever I do, I want you to be along and have faith in me!

And lastly, the question of marriage! I am well aware you want to pick up a guy for me  (which mother doesn’t 😉 ) and want me to think he’s the one and get married. But that is not so convincing. I don’t oppose you picking up someone for me, but I seriously can’t think of spending my life with him unless I fall in love with him. I am not very choosy or demanding, so that can not be tough. His thoughts and psychology on life has to resonate with me, that’s all I want! We never get into the enough comfort zone to explain you all this. But hope you’d understand.

Mom, your daughter is and would always be you daughter but she’s also a whole different person now and she wants to have some liberty being that. I’m sure you must be knowing almost everything I’ve written above, only that I can’t tell these to your face or probably never could. Hope you’re not saddened that I’m not your dream daughter!

Love you more than anyone or anything else,
Your daughter

Tough Times, Tough People and God!

27 Sep

I know there has been a hiatus. But seems there were still some tests of life left for me to attempt this year!
As I mentioned earlier, I’m not doing well. Since 14th of august I’ve been suffering from a poorly diagnosed case of fever. It was supposedly a transient viral illness initially. When it didn’t go away even after a dose of antibiotic, I was taken for a whole lot of investigations. Chest X-ray, blood tests, ultrasound, malarial parasite test, Widal and typhidot, urine tests etc. Meanwhile I was being continuously medicated. Nothing was diagnosed until last week, when I was declared a case of typhoid fever. Hence, I was started on an i.v. line of antibiotics which is still continuing with no results so far. 😦

I could have tolerated it without complaints had the bomb of exams not dropped. My exams that were due January next year have now been scheduled for late November this year. Which means less than two months to recuperate and study my ass off as another year of my life depends entirely on these exams.

So, this explains my absence. But what next? How am I going to do it all?
Having faith in God that stands by my side, I’m sure I’ll find out a way. The same god that brought me to life, that gave me a loving family, a perfectly healthy body and mind, good friends, an enviable education. The same God will enlighten my way and lead me to my destiny. All I need to do is trust him and keep working with optimism. I will come out victorious, I’m strong after all. 🙂

God be with us.

Another Award!

22 Aug

This is a beautiful award for which i have been nominated by this equally wonderful girl, Tina. Huge thanks!

Inspiring-Blog-Award

So, as per the rules I’m supposed to list seven facts about me and nominate seven more people for this.
As far as former is concerned, that’s here.

For the ones that inspire me, a list follows:

  1. http://thediaryofmeblog.wordpress.com/
  2. http://zainedout.wordpress.com/
  3. http://thewhyaboutthis.com/

These are the new additions to my old list of fifteen inspiring blogs.

I’d like to thank Tina again. Dear, you have a wonderful blog.
🙂

A nomination in my first month here! Really?

31 Jul

Okay! I am not even sure what made you (every post of this girl would be worth your time, i am confident!) do this, but you are abundantly generous.
So a very inspiring blogger award! It’s nice to know specially when i started this blog for inspiring myself in the first place.
I don’t exactly know what to do next and i don’t know if i am doing it right but this is what i have read here and there. So, pardon if i mess up stuff.

The RULES to follow when nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award:

  1. Display the award logo on your blog.
  2. Link back to the person who nominated you.
  3. State 7 things about yourself.
  4. Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award and link to them.
  5. Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements.

7 things about me:
(It is difficult to do this, when i have chosen to be anonymous)

  1. I have been blessed with the ability to find good in practically anything. That helps me be happy.
  2. I love to read, write, sing, dance, draw, craft, cook and narrate. But i am no good at any of these.
  3. I am a piscean.
  4. Somewhere deep down my heart, I am a feminist and a narcissist.
  5. I am annoyingly moody person.
  6. I had a 7 years long relationship, which was a long distance for 5 years.
  7. I will one day have a published book to my name. Though i am not anywhere near it at present, but i will.

The 15 bloggers that have inspired me:

  1. wanderlust: I love the way you capture. Keep going. I wait for your posts.
  2. clotildajamcracker: attractive writer, innovative thinker. Lethal combination. Makes me want to read more.
  3. The Waiting: What she writes is fresh.
  4. just a quote: i have always been into beautiful oneliners that make you think and this one is the best link for that.
  5. made for victory: when i read about her, i thought “Oh my! If i be half as strong as her, i can do anything!”
  6. Cristian Mihai: A simple fact that he has done so much at such tender age, makes me do want to do more.
  7. allloveinspired: if you read her you’ll realise there are people like you everywhere. Just that they have a better perspective.
  8. Life isn’t so much a puzzle as it is a plan: he is simple and elegant. I read his posts more than once.
  9. betweenfearandlove: she made me feel, its never too late to begin.
  10. roasted marshmallows: there is something about the way she writes. May be its simplicity or fun. but something is definitely different.
  11. Poeta Officium: I want to be as beautiful as her when i’m over 3 decades. She is unbelievably young. Not just physically, but the way she writes too.
  12. Foodosaurus Rex: i thoroughly enjoy her posts.
  13. Search 4 a Soul mate: She is the first person i would label as extrovert in the best and truest sense.
  14. Yeah, that crazy blog…: It’s more than just crazy. It’s happy and fun and smart and sensitive at the same time.
  15. Paperweight: It takes me back to the whole process of my adolescence.

So. here are my inspiring fifteen. I have no idea how to notify them apart from adding their links here. Hope you people get to know it.

And yeah i still couldn’t be thankful enough to Megan Lucas. I don’t know if i could do it, but i would have mentioned you the first one in the list if i could.

P.S. I love it here! 🙂

Some are still Good!

23 Jul

Few years ago, I got an email from one of my transcendentalist friend which was although just another forwarded mail but was beautiful and has stayed in my heart since then. Amongst other messages that it contained, one was MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST. It has been on my mind for long, but time couldn’t be better than now. Coursing through a rough patch in life, it could actually help to see what i have or what i have received over the years. So, here it is:

  1. Mr. D: The first person that deserves mention is my friend D. The one who actually sent me that mail. Before i met him four years ago, i was all studies and my then boyfriend. He on the other hand had a vision. A vision that really influenced me. He was a aspiring student enterpreneur then and now owns a greeting card company and an online magazine. I learned from him to live my dreams howsoever impossible they seem.
  2. Mr. X: Next in line stands Mr. X, who is none other than my ex boyfriend. Yeah he turned out to be a jerk in due course of time. But i owe him the fact that i regained myself. He was a little less selfless (i’m just being polite), which made me think about myself and interview my soul for the first time in my adult life.
  3. Mrs. Bunny: She was my mess incharge in hostel. I don’t even know her real name. I called her Bunny. She is one lady that stood by me all the ups and downs of my college days. Be it she-bitched-about-me tears or i-have-an-exam-tomorrow-i-will-fail depression, she was always there.  One hell of a lady, she single handedly brought up her 3 children and a husband who was never much help. I loved her fighting spirit and her patience. I owe a lot to her.
  4. My brother: When i was a kid. nobody taught me how to ride a bicycle. I would take it on road early morning and try myself. That one morning I was riding it from one side, not having enough confidence to cross my leg to the other. My little brother who was watching me said,”Why don’t you just cross your legs and sit on it?” And that made me do it. He knows my fears & weaknesses better than anyone else (he’s very liberal mentioning it everytime he should and shouldn’t) and makes me face it. He’s a menace!

Of course this list is spread over a long temporal scale, but i tell you, make a daily gratitude list. Add those small favours that people do for you everyday. And you’ll feel good. Moreover when you meet bad people in life you can look at that list and say, “What if most of the world is bad, SOME ARE STILL GOOD!”

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