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Tough Times, Tough People and God!

27 Sep

I know there has been a hiatus. But seems there were still some tests of life left for me to attempt this year!
As I mentioned earlier, I’m not doing well. Since 14th of august I’ve been suffering from a poorly diagnosed case of fever. It was supposedly a transient viral illness initially. When it didn’t go away even after a dose of antibiotic, I was taken for a whole lot of investigations. Chest X-ray, blood tests, ultrasound, malarial parasite test, Widal and typhidot, urine tests etc. Meanwhile I was being continuously medicated. Nothing was diagnosed until last week, when I was declared a case of typhoid fever. Hence, I was started on an i.v. line of antibiotics which is still continuing with no results so far. 😦

I could have tolerated it without complaints had the bomb of exams not dropped. My exams that were due January next year have now been scheduled for late November this year. Which means less than two months to recuperate and study my ass off as another year of my life depends entirely on these exams.

So, this explains my absence. But what next? How am I going to do it all?
Having faith in God that stands by my side, I’m sure I’ll find out a way. The same god that brought me to life, that gave me a loving family, a perfectly healthy body and mind, good friends, an enviable education. The same God will enlighten my way and lead me to my destiny. All I need to do is trust him and keep working with optimism. I will come out victorious, I’m strong after all. 🙂

God be with us.

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Big Lessons in tiny pleasures: Part 3

8 Sep

You are still alive in our hearts baby!

Foreword: I am a huge dog person. So, in the post ahead if I narrow down my opinion to the best creatures of this world, which would be dogs, then I expect a lenience in your criticism. Also, this post is dedicated to my beloved pet dog Sheru. Darling, may you rest in peace.

I do not recall a child who hasn’t wanted or had a pet. A pet is like the best better half you can have. A pet is like a kid that can be trained. A pet is a living soft toy (pardon my metaphorisation of pet with a dog).

These are the lessons that I’ve learnt from all my pets I’ve ever had which include Michael, Lucy, Suzy, Tiger and Sheru. You sweethearts have had a big impact on my life!

  1. Loyalty: The first and most important lesson I believe every pet teaches is being faithful. Dogs are renowned for it, but I’ve had a heart-warming experience with my Granpa’s  parrot, dad’s pigeon and cousin’s monkey. The monkey’s name was donut and it died within 3 days of my cousin’s fatal accident.
  2. Concentration: It’s a small observation that every animal has an extreme level of concentration. This may be a result of the fact that they do not have to worry about their looks or career or crush. Whatever be the reason but it’s worth learning that everypet has a hell lot of concentration and learns extremely fast.
  3. Aggression: Have you ever had an encounter with an angry bird? Do you believe teasing a monkey is harmless? It’s in your benefit that you reply to both the questions as a big NO!
    You annoy an animal in the matters that are important to it and beware it can do anything!
    So, if it’s important to you, fight for it.
  4. Simplicity: My favourite quote of all times is “HANDLE STRESS LIKE A DOG. IF YOU CAN’T EAT IT OR PLAY WITH IT, PEE ON IT AND WALK AWAY.” Similarly, if you can do something about a problem then do it. Otherwise bury it.
  5. Stand for your fellows: My granny used to say, “A pig when in trouble, finds other pigs around for help which makes us believe humans are even worse!”
    Isn’t that true? Why is standing up for others so much insignificant to us?

Pets are a blessing from the heaven above. If you’ve never had one, go for it! Even if it’s as small as a goldfish. You’ll learn a lot and definitely evolve!

P.S. I know metaphorisation is not a word!
😉

Some are still Good!

23 Jul

Few years ago, I got an email from one of my transcendentalist friend which was although just another forwarded mail but was beautiful and has stayed in my heart since then. Amongst other messages that it contained, one was MAKE A GRATITUDE LIST. It has been on my mind for long, but time couldn’t be better than now. Coursing through a rough patch in life, it could actually help to see what i have or what i have received over the years. So, here it is:

  1. Mr. D: The first person that deserves mention is my friend D. The one who actually sent me that mail. Before i met him four years ago, i was all studies and my then boyfriend. He on the other hand had a vision. A vision that really influenced me. He was a aspiring student enterpreneur then and now owns a greeting card company and an online magazine. I learned from him to live my dreams howsoever impossible they seem.
  2. Mr. X: Next in line stands Mr. X, who is none other than my ex boyfriend. Yeah he turned out to be a jerk in due course of time. But i owe him the fact that i regained myself. He was a little less selfless (i’m just being polite), which made me think about myself and interview my soul for the first time in my adult life.
  3. Mrs. Bunny: She was my mess incharge in hostel. I don’t even know her real name. I called her Bunny. She is one lady that stood by me all the ups and downs of my college days. Be it she-bitched-about-me tears or i-have-an-exam-tomorrow-i-will-fail depression, she was always there.  One hell of a lady, she single handedly brought up her 3 children and a husband who was never much help. I loved her fighting spirit and her patience. I owe a lot to her.
  4. My brother: When i was a kid. nobody taught me how to ride a bicycle. I would take it on road early morning and try myself. That one morning I was riding it from one side, not having enough confidence to cross my leg to the other. My little brother who was watching me said,”Why don’t you just cross your legs and sit on it?” And that made me do it. He knows my fears & weaknesses better than anyone else (he’s very liberal mentioning it everytime he should and shouldn’t) and makes me face it. He’s a menace!

Of course this list is spread over a long temporal scale, but i tell you, make a daily gratitude list. Add those small favours that people do for you everyday. And you’ll feel good. Moreover when you meet bad people in life you can look at that list and say, “What if most of the world is bad, SOME ARE STILL GOOD!”

Be A Toad!

14 Jul

 

Common Toad
(I don’t own the image. Its from internet.)

 

Its still dark when i reach my running track in the morning. And there are lots of toads hopping around. For the obvious reason i have to keep my eyes where my feet go until sun comes up. It was annoying till a day before when i took some time out to observe these classified-hideous beings. But after my serious observation i will highly recommend you to be a toad. Why? Keep reading.

  1. ACCEPT WHAT YOU ARE. The world says they are ugly. Well, So what!! They are what they are.
  2. IF YOU HAVE LESS, USE IT MORE. If God has given you less abilities use them more effectively and ardently. As for a toad, what if it can not sing it croaks without hesitation.
  3. BE UNPREDICTABLE. It is my personal observation that a toad doesn’t walk in a straight line. Well so shouldn’t you! Be unpredictable and surprise the world.
  4. DEFENCE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ATTACK. Toad has strong but short hind legs, making it a less of a predator and more of a safe player. When it hops it knows it is strong enough to bear that fall. So before attacking have a safety measure.
  5. SPECIAL TIP JUST FOR GUYS. Guys, carry your girls on your back. They love it. 😉

Get Up & Get Going

7 Jul

You never thought this blog would be all about running. Huh?
Running could not improve my situation, it could just give me enough strength.
So, what would actually improve this Impending doom?
My master’s Entrance exams! Which would be conducted again in January next year. And this time I am to win. I have been saying this last sentence to myself since April (when officially all the seats of past year got filled up).
I also started preparing. At least tried to. But i never felt that heat.
But Now things are different. Its July. And I guess this is the last call.If I lose any more time, i lose it all. I have to get up and get going. So, I thought I’ll make a list of reasons I am doing this for, which follows:

1. For My confidence: I have to regain the fact that the big guy up there makes nothing NO-GOOD. I have to trust myself again with the fact that I can do it. Because I know I can.
2. For My Family: My family specially my mom has been much more supportive than I could ever think they would be on this one. I owe it to them. They taught me to never stay down. And I will dedicate this to them. Not only the reward but the journey.
3. For A better future: I know I deserve better & I will see how much. I want to see the limits.
4. As an answer: With all the falls, come the bags of pity and taunts and revelations. On the way downhill, I met all of em. My so- called friends. My partners. And the ones who were just seeking a chance to paint me black. I want to get up and say back “I won’t be over so easy”.
5. As a part of my duty: I have a really noble and responsible profession at hand. And I have to be honest to it. I have to be the best I can coz it affects not only myself, but a whole lot others.

To Beginning stronger everyday! To Hope! To faith!

P.S.: I did run today. 🙂

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YOU DESERVE ONE MORE RUN

6 Jul

YOU DESERVE ONE MORE RUN

As I was organising my stuff last evening I came across these.
My old pair of shoes. And I chose them. Over four other much younger, fitter and beautiful pairs.
Wanna know why?
Coz they felt like me.
Worn out, Tired, Lost and Rejected.
And I wanted to say to them
“No! Its not over yet for you. You’ve still got it. YOU DESERVE ONE MORE RUN..!”

This Is Not Running Away

5 Jul

Before i start with this post, it is extremely important for you to know that for my whole life i have never ever RUN.
I mean it literally.
I could walk for hours. I could Skip. I could hit a gym. But i could never run.
And when it comes to morning runs, i am like GARFIELD. I wouldn’t try it.
But then in my present situation it hit me,
“Everything is going stale. I could use something fresh”
And nothing is fresher than a splash of morning air!
So on 2nd July, 2012, i did go for a run (that too at 5am).
And since then i have not missed a day.
Okay. Okay. i know its been only 4 days, but i promise (to myself) its gonna last.

Now that i have started this i would jot down my motivations to run (so that i can turn back and look at it the day i forget these!).
1. A CHANGE: I really needed a change.
2. TO FEEL FIT: I have been growing rounder (thanx to all the chocolates i prescribed myself for depression)
3. DISCIPLINE: An urge to do something at fixed time of the day might push me for some more discipline (which could really come in handy for now).
4. MUSIC: As i run, i plug in the crankiest tunes i have heard. This peps me up in the wee hours giving me the confidence.
(One of my favourites has been STAND BACK by JOAN OSBORNE from RAISING HELEN)
5. I AM STILL BETTER: As i run i see old people coming for walks. Ones that are too weak to walk. Some suffering from arthritis and some from Osteoporosis. I see a crippled young lad pushing himself to walk more than 5 steps in one go. and it tells me “THANK GOD! I AM STILL BETTER.”

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